Warning. This will be a very long entry…
 
Remember tha last post that I said everyone is going away from me? A couple days ago, Zio aka Armando, said that he’s going to leave. I asked him why but then I realized that I’m the one who made mistakes a lot in our relationship. So I think he’ll be happy with another girl. Not with me. So I told him to go. I can’t sleep that night, I was outside the house til morning. Looking to the sky (like a stupid cat), it was fullmoon, very beautiful I was thinking that maybe I would never meet him again. In the next day, I went to a place that we ever visited together. I was like ‘I was here with him’. I almost cry in a public place, I know I’m such a stupid. Suddenly, he send me a message, he said he hoped that we could meet that day, so I ask him if we can talk. So we met.
 
Once that I saw him, I was like ‘is he still mine?‘ It was such an awkward situation. We just act like nothing happened. Ah, I couldn’t talk much that time. Then he took me to Ambarrukmo Plaza, but we didn’t know what we were doing there, he didn’t talk much, we just walked along the store. And In our way, we met a group of 5-6 girls. They are Armando’s friend. I don’t know those girls but one of them is a friend of mine from in my secondary school. All of them was like ‘So here she is..‘, felt like being interrogated. I was so nervous that time. Met his friends, and look at myself. I’m just a girl who just dealing with school and stuffs. While he’s busy with a lot of things, radio, and clubs, etc. How I always feel like a stranger in my school while he made a lot of friends in his school. I felt like, I shouldn’t be here.. Yeah, I’m a geek.
 
So maybe that’s why he finally took me to the bookstore. Hehe. I saw a lot of good novels, Soekarno and Obama’s biography and a book of astronomy added to my wishlist I didn’t have money, so I didn’t buy anything. I really want Jodie Picoult’s My Sister’s Keeper so much, shame on me I haven’t read that great novel the price is $4.8 and I only have $2.0 for a week. My God, I’m so broke.
 
I think I wont buy that books this time. I’m still saving up my money to buy a present for him. Yes, his birthday is nearing I want to make everything handmade and special. Unfortunately, it looks like his birthday is on Ramadhan, which means we wouldn’t be able to go out for dinner. So I have to make a different plan. Wanna give me ideas to make a surprise for him?
 
Anyway, I’m glad that everything is okay. I thought it was the end of my story with him. But he always know how to make everything better. He such a great man. I’m so lucky to have him here. Don’t want to lose him lah.
 
Okay, enough. This is just a long and boring post
 
EDIT Installed custom smilies and anti-spam plugins. I’m sick with all the spam comments duh